Thursday, June 7, 2012

Last week I had a biopsy; yesterday I found out I have breast cancer.  That's really hard to write.  I'm told it's the most common kind, "invasive ductile carcinoma."  It's sounds terrible, and right now I feel pretty terrible, but I'll be OK.  God has brought me this far, and He's not going to leave me now.  I'm am trusting Him to the fullest to bring me through this "bump in the road."  I have a decision to make, and the most wonderful family and friends anyone could ever be blessed with, and I am so thankful for their love & support.  I don't know how anyone could ever get through the trials of life without family & friends praying them through.  God never promises us the road will be smooth & life will be perfect.  We are made perfect through Him.

I'm going to learn as much as I can about this disease that "other women" have, and do as much as I can to get through it, but I can do that only with the Lord's help. It's scary, yes, and I can't say I'm not scared, but Psalm 27: 1 says,
"The Lord is my light and my salvation:
Whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the strength of my life:
Of whom shall I be afraid?"
So, I have to trust the Lord to carry me through, and I know he will.

"I have set the Lord always before me.
Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
Therefore, my heart is  glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure."  Ps. 16: 8-9

 This verse has been repeated in my mind a hundred times the last few weeks, and I will cling to the promise that He is at my right hand. Things are changing for me, but I'm not changing.  The Lord is not changing.  He is the same yesterday, today, forever.

So, to make a long story short, I have decisions to make and God to guide me to the right one.  For that I am thankful; to know the Lord and know He is at my right hand.